It has taken me 32 years to finally begin to understand, in an embodied way, that there is nothing I can do to deserve love. Nothing any of us can do to deserve it. Instead, we must have the humility to continue to open to receive it. I love being married: it has brought a deeper level of intimacy and engagement with life, and it kicks my butt all the time. Did I say that? Did I do that? And yet I am still received with more kindness than judgement by my partner, more forgiveness, more willingness to come together, to not know more than we know. This is, perhaps, the deepest receiving I have ever been asked to do.
Sweet dreams, and may your receive the love that has always been there for you.